Not What I Want

After a hard night of tension and poor communication with Steve and I, I reluctantly entered into my alone time with the Lord. As always, I am humbled and grateful I did. It's been a long time since I've written about my time with the Lord, but felt led to today. Mostly because my husband has asked that I write, so out of love of honor for him, and obedience to my Abba...

1 Thessalonians 1:1-12
Verse 11 stood out to me:
"May He give you the power to accomplish all the good things your faith prompts you to do."

The good things my faith prompts me to do usually aren't the things my flesh/self/ego (whatever you want to call it) wants me to do. I want to...
do things that make ME feel good
things that fulfill ME
things that make ME look good
things that are fun, exciting, impressive, big
things that I decide are a really good idea and make sense
things that I think I'm good at

Paul and Silas and Timothy are praying for power to accomplish the good things YOU lead me to do (things that my FAITH prompts).
BIG difference.
I can't plan it---map it---design a purposeful existence. I can't SEE it---because when I walk by faith I can't see the road ahead, only the path below that you light up. God, I'm horrible at not leaning on my own understanding---I want it to be for ME. I pray for Your power to accomplish what YOU want. Give me keen sensitivity to Your promptings...
v. 12 "THEN the name of our Lord Jesus Christ will be honored because of the way you live, and you will be honored along with Him. This is all made possible because of Your grace." That's what I long for.

Again, You point me to a life of abiding in You. You invite me to cling and obey. And You promise inexpressible joy. May You give me the power to accomplish Your will; to do what You lead me to do.